In other news, I had breakfast with my dad around mid-July. Yep. That caused a bit of anxiety on my part leading up to it, but he reached out to me and ultimately the result is that we both agreed we can work on our relationship over time. As for the rest of my family, I still don't know. I don't trust them. Not that I completely trust my dad, but he's my dad. I love him so much and even though he has his faults, of both of my parents, he is the one that has been there consistently. That means something. I think as time goes on, my step-mom and my brother can probably have some kind of familial relationship with me, however, any relationship with my sister on my dad's side is way too broken to mend. I haven't forgiven her for how she treated me or what she did intentionally to hurt my children and I. That's a tough one. I know I need to forgive and I am working on it. At the end of the day, I am living my life without toxic people so there is a weight that has been lifted off my shoulders and it feel so good!
Finally, my daughter and I went on an incredible road trip down the Oregon Coast to San Francisco for 2 weeks. It was amazing and a much-needed reprieve from the stress of life. I have also been working on my book AND I'm getting ready to launch a Nonprofit Organization. I know! I will have more details later, but I am super excited. Thus, when I say that it was a busy summer, it was a busy summer! It's not going to get much easier either as we move into Fall, but I'm ready for all life brings me with the occasional mental breakdown and spending some time hiding under a rock. I just have to remind myself that when I get overwhelmed, it's Ok to step back and regroup without beating myself up or sabotaging myself. That old record player telling me that I'm not good enough just doesn't realize that I'm moving forward.
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